If you point a finger; i'll point you to the mirror

I truely hope you will see this, because it's pissing th shit outta me and i hate it.
I am always at fault and you are the saint. And why is this so?

Firstly, i hate ppl who accuse me when i've done nth to hurt thm.
You see, apparently i think you forgot about th sms you sent me right after our graduation. You said "Must at least meet up once a week! If not i will flood your emails, inbox, testi, comments!"
Let's see, we dint fulfil that promise. Why is that so? Bacause of a particular someone who thinks that working hard for money is better thn going out with me, afterall, friendship with me is pointless and stupid.
YOU are the one who broke this promise. Did i ever, for th past 2 months, accuse you of this? No. I let you work because i know how money means to you. I shut up and dint complain.

Secondly, you finally made time for an outing, but you called someone along. But in the first place, you said th outing is for ME and YOU, ONLY.
Who is the one who break promises again?
In my opinion, when you called someone along, i get th feeling you think outing with me is boring and pointless and a complete waste of time. Did i complain? No, i din't. I shut up and let you two to shop.
So, both of you happily shop. Dint care a hoot about me.
I'm fine with it.

Thirdly, you changed.
I always know you were materialistic, but i din't know you can actually accept gifts from someone without any reason and occasion. What's worst is tht someone isn't even your family and it's a guy.
From what i see, you enjoyed it. Alot. Since he can satisfy your needs, right? Did you talk to me about this? No. I'm, afterall, nothing. Right?

Fourthly, You wanted a listening ear, but you never expect yourself to be one.
Have you ever notice why i wouldn't speak to you about my problems? Yes true i find it hard to open up. But another reason is when i talk to you, you either ignore me, look elsewhere, or simply, change the subject.
You simply DO NOT want to hear anything abt me. I'm a burden? Perharps, afterall, i'm nobody.

So, throughout all this, i did not utter a single word. I did not complain. I did not accuse you of anything, even after all the promises you break.
And now, you turn around and accuse me? Simply because i called lh to join us tgt for th flea market outing?
I'll be frank. I did it DELIBERATELY because i wanted you to FEEL how other people feel like when thy were so excited abt an outing and in the end, thy realised thr's a third party tagging along.
So now i wanna ask you. How does it FEEL like? Sucks, much?
That is how ALL OF US feel when you call people to come along, without informing us.

Put yourself in other people's shoes. This is your lesson no. 1.

And you said i'm not the same bitch you know anymore?
Ya know why? It's you who changed. Not me.
You dint make time for a sister's one-to-one chat.
You break promises who i stupidly believe it's true.

It's my fault heh?

I.Simply.Do.Not.Understand.Why.

During 2009, you were not like that.
I guess partly now tht you changed is because of tzewei.
Afterall, he's wealthy enough to buy you things. I'm not.

I don't regret anything i've said. I can really just shut up and get done with my life. But i had enough of you accusing me when you are th one who made cracks in our friendship.

You always said i've change, have you ever sit down and ponder why and who causes this?

You can't expect me to sit and wait everyday for your smses on which day you are free and expect me to make time for you. I can't.
Maybe in the past i will, but not now anymore. I won't sit and hear onto your commands.
This world is not only about you. It's time you stop demanding and make things right. If thats what you want.
If not, go and be friends with your tzewei.
I seriously can't be bothered anymore.

You are th one who taught me that Promises are meant to be broken. Now i can see why this phrase is so-true.

Love,
Zijing