Eve

Today is the last day of 2009, which means tml is the first day of 2010. I have to say time really passes by--fast. It seems like wearing the school uniform and attending th first day of school in 2009 is only yesterday. Yet today, it's already 31st December, 2009. Un.Believ.Able.
I can't believe my 5 years of Secondary life ended. I can't believe i'll be taking my O level results soon. And i can't believe i'm gonna grow a year older! This is just too hard to accept. Time is too cruel. Reality is too cruel. Why can't time pass at a slower pace? I din't even get to enjoy my last day of 2009; and look at the time! It's already 6:42 and i have less than 6 hours before it's the starting of 2010!

But at the same time, everything remains the same. I mean, the last day of 2009 does not feel that much of a difference to 2010. It's just another day. Another boring, typical, common day.

But you can't deny the itchy feeling in your heart that tells you that though it doesn't looks different, it feels different. Somewhere in your subconsious mind, you know that 2009 is over. Whatever regrets you have in 2009, it's over. There's nothing you can do to change it. And the only thing left to do is, well, live on and continue your life in 2010.

Gosh.

And the way to celebrate the end of the year? Stay at home. Do nothing, except watch a couple movies online, have a typical take-away, watch animal planet. Sleep.
And when i wake up tomorrow it'll be 2010. And seriously, i don't feel any difference. That's me. Boring, skeptical, cynical ol' me.

Eekk.

Love,
Zijing