You're on your own

Right. Geog prelim today. Paper was a little tricky but do-able. Last two papers is POA paper 1 and Science paper 1.
I'm almost done finishing my knitting and gonna post pictures of it soon.
Swimming with the girls yesterday, got burnt and face hurts like shit now. Regrets. cause' i already promise myself to stop turning black and yet i din't do it.
Holidays was okay. Maybe gonna have korea bbq chicken with mum later.

Take a look here. Really creative thinking. Wish i could go):

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On another note.
1. I din't mention anything about you being fake. I din't even type out your name, for god's sake! The fact tht you retaliate by mentioning it on your blog means you indirectly agree that you ARE fake. Well, at least it's good to start accepting your true self.

2. So, after all that happens. You regretted knowing us? And then, you think i'm happy to know you? The thing is, you yourself know what you have done. Even your truest of the true best friend you also cn backstabbed. You think i will trust you? You think i can trust you?

3. You should know what you did. You can deny, act innocent, cry and pretend you're the victim. But deep down, you yourself know whether what you did is the correct thing, or is it just your pretenses. Or maybe, you need me to remind you who did you backstabbed before?

4. I don't get it. Is it sooooooo difficult to just be true to yourself. You are sooo FAKE. Fucking fake. The fakest of the fake. The whole universe "world fakest champion" will be you. For sure. You can say one thing, and then mean another. What? You got a split personality? I remember asking you why are you doing this. Your reply? "Oh, i don't want to ruin this friendship."
Okay, so you can say it behind other ppl's back, and the friendship won't be destroyed? I thought it was the other way round? I thought that whenever there was a conflict, we are suppose to shoot it out. NOT Say it behind ppl's back. Isn't being truth to yourself and others the best way to solve a problem? Hmm.

5. You don't say what you mean and mean what you say. I don't understand why. If in the first place you don't mean it. Why did you even say it? For god's sake.

6. You said we believe in what other ppl say and not believe in our hearts. Well, seriously. Aren't you saying yourself? Touch your heart, of all the times when something terrible happened. aren't you the first one to believe in rumors?
And, I am not like you. I don't believe rumors and i believe what i see and feel. From what i see and feel, you are downright fake and impossible to trust.

7. You can continue to play fake and gain ppl's attention. That's your hobby, isn't it? To gain everyone's trust, and then destroy it YOURSELF by speaking behind ppl's back. Yes, it's normal to gossip. But what you did is beyond gossip. It hurts ppl feelings and seriously, you can be what you are today is not because you are that capable. It's because you know how to take advantage of the situation. Like Venice and France.(I'm applying ss here, so clever)

8. You said it's what? Regretful to know us? Well, why not blame yourself instead of others. You dare to swear that you are not fake? You dare to swear that you DID NOT backstab ppl? I bet you feel guilty, right? So i think you need to rephrase, you should change it to "I feel so regretful to speak behind ppl's back. It hurts ppl feelings and make me a downright faker. I'm such a fuck up person."

9. Your english sucks. Stop applying chim words whn you dnt know how to use them. It only makes it hard for ppl to read what you are saying and it shows what a country pumpkin you are.
I'm not saying my english is perfect. But it's better than you.

10. I'm not saying i don't gossip. But i know my limits and i don't say things that hurt ppl. I don't betray my bestest of my best friend, i don't say nasty things about my team mates, i don't remember hatred. I know what is forgive and forget and i mean it. Whereas for some people, they said they will forgive and forget but deep down, they remember it vividly. They do things that confuses people. They said they already forgotten that particular incident, but whenever something crops up again, they use tht particular incident as an excuse. Saying "I cannot forget it, you hurt me so much. I'll never step into this place agn. I got phobia". Blahblahhblah.

11. My mummy once told me if i dislike a person, than i should stay away from her asap. But for you, it's a different story. You did not stay away from that person. Instead, you pretended to forgive tht person but whnever there's an opportunity, you backstabbed her again. Since you dislike her so much, why did you pretend to like her? Hmm. OH, right. Almost forgot. You.Are.Fake. Pretending is your hobby!

12. I did not mention names here. Don't blame me of you think i was talking about you): Blame yourself. Who ask you to admit it indirectly by mentioning in your blog. Awwwwww. Too bad):

13. Everybody has a bad side. For me? I agree i can be sarcastic and bitchy at times. But only to ppl i dislike. I agree i gossip. But only about ppl i dislike. The best part of this? It's that when i dislike a person, i truly mean it. You will NEVER see me talking to tht person or me pretending to be on good terms with her. When i dislike you, i'm sorry. It's a long term thing. At least i'm being true to myself.

14. For all this time, i did not say it's stupid to know you. And yet you said it. Well, all i can say is "The thief calling other ppl thief." I din't said it was stupid to know you after what you did to me. Yet you said it, when i was completely innocent. Seriously, i wonder if you ever think it through the past weeks. When i said something about you, it must have a reason. Surely i'm not so free as to randomly pollute your reputation, right? Have you think of the reasons? Have you ever wonder if you are being true to yourself? Have you asked yourself if you are worthy of ppl's trust?

15. You said things about me. That's okay. What i'm not okay is you even can say bad things about your truest of the true best friend of yours. Actually, i don't really care cause' i don't really like tht friend of yours too. But well, it just let me see what kind of a person you are): At least i get to see your true color.

16. Stop doing this if you want to have a normal and many-friend life. It's okay cause we may not see each other any more. But i feel pity to all the other strangers out there whom may be your friend in the future who are innocent. Stop. Okay.


With love,
Zijng