take flight

Life's so unfair , to me .

You are always complaining about how i always failed to do chores , but in th first place , did you use your eyes to see if i really didn't do ? You are always complaining about me .
Am i invisible ? To you ? I don't get it why are you always turning a deaf ear whenever i talk to you . If you don't want me in th house , tell me . I'll go .
Stop treating me as if i'm not there , as if i'm th outsider , as if i'm th one thts extra .
Why must you always vent out your moodswings on me ? Don't you find yourself too old for tht ? & thn , at th end , it will always be my fault . As if i know whts wrong ? As if it's me who cause all th trouble ! It's not th first time anymore .
If you don't want to see me , tell me .
If you want me to go away , tell me .
Must you treat me as invisible ? Do you care how i feel ? What am i to you ? Does my existence counts to you ? You are always complaining about things , but did you in th first place see th efforts i put in ?

Sometimes i really really really feel like leaving .
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Maybe i shouldn't start whining now . Since i've live with it for th past 16 years , whts th point of complaining whn nothing's gna change ? You want me to be invisible ? Fine , i'm good at ths anw .

Sometimes i wonder whts my existence for since i'm gna die sooner or later & thrs nth tht i can contribute to th society . Whts th point ?

With love ,
Zijing