I can see right through you

Have you ever felt like you trusted someone with a secret & yet thy share it with someone else ?
Have you ever felt like you think you have a v nice friend & yet tht friend doesn't thinks th same about you ?
Have you ever felt tht you had a pretty close friend but you can never ever truly know wht tht friend is thinking , or feeling ?
Have you ever felt how a friend cn pretend to be v close with you , but once behind your back , thy started acting another way ?
Have you ever felt tht though friends may seem to understand you , but in actual fact , thy don't really seem to bother about your problems ?

I realised i don't know what to feel . Maybe i'm upset , maybe i'm pissed , maybe i'm hurt .
But i think th more appropriate term is numb , i am numb . I don't really care how people see me . They think i'm evil , black-hearted , mean , cold-blooded . Whatever .

I know clearly well tht what i'm speaking is th truth . Everything happens for a reason . I don't start cursing out of nowhere .
Instead of going around telling people how miserable i feel , i ponder on wht did i do to make tht particular person start cursing on me . Yes , i'm childish . So ? Thats me . It's clearly well tht you cannot accept me for ths reason , i don't see why we should continue being friends .
I have to find a way to vent it out , what do you want me to do ? Start killing someone ? Or lock myself in a room & start to cry, sulk & emo like a three year old ?
I.Really.Cannot.Stand.Fake.People .

S once told me tht you are this kind of person . I didn't really believe it . Not until now . I trusted you with a secret even though how fake i know you are . I thought to myself tht i didn't offend you in anyway , i didn't backstabbed you , i didn't kill your parents , i didn't said anything negative about you . And congrats , you really prove to me tht wht S says is right . You truly are one fuck face bitch . I don't get it , wht did i do to you ? I don't mind you backstabbing me . But if i get to know tht you add on something tht is not true , trust me . Wht comes round goes around . Especially for fake bitch like you . So now you offended S , you offended me . Congratulations on gaining one new enemy . Trust me , i will hate you & curse you every single day . Bitch .


With love ,
Zijing